I just wanted to take a minute to thank my wonderful loving Father, sister, brother, and "Air" who has been helping me with Moving! Payton and I lived alone for about a year, though it was quite lonely. With my parents "OK" I've decided to move back home not only for the help but for the wonderful company! Currently the house is a bit packed and I had to sleep on the couch until the basement got finished (a Room for Payton and I)... Well Its almost there! I no longer have to sleep on the couch and my bed has been amazing might I add... My father is so amazing and has been working day and night to get this task finished (on his birthday even!)... There are a few minor details that need to be finished but I think that everyone who has helped needs to be thanked! SO THANK YOU! Love you all!
(Pictures of the room will be posted soon)
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
Thank You!
Posted by Pj's Mama at 8:46 AM 3 comments
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
To my beautiful Mother...
This is my mother at the age of 16...
I wanted to share something I came across looking through my old journals, I found a poem I wrote for my mother back in 2003....
There you are so old and wise.... A life experienced through suck beautiful eyes. Parents who loved you... A husband who cares, Children that look up to you and strangers who cant help but stop and share....
Your life is a journey... A road that no one knows... You've lost so much a long the way, to only learn and grow.
The many blessings in your life, Show through all your fears.. To look into those beautiful eyes, Tells stories of so many tears..
As you live, you learn to deal... With life's so many unexpected. The loss of loved ones, a birth of a child... All of this is brought and shown, through your beautiful dimpled smile...
Posted by Pj's Mama at 12:13 PM 1 comments
Which "Path" should I take?
Why is it that I continue to go towards a path that I know is off limits? It is with my own doing that this "path" has met its end though I continue to try and force it to continue.... I know that there are somethings in life that we have to do for our own good, though I do not feel as though there was any want in what I had chosen.
I beat myself up every day for the choice that I made, though I know that it was the best choice I could have made at the time for my family... I may sound silly but I just cant seem to cope, maybe because somehow without my doing or searching this "path" seems to want to continue as well. Its ended and done, though can it branch off and take another? Yet again do I want to forget what was? Just to go with the flow and create a new one? I dont think so... I dont think i'll ever forget, If I cant have it the way it was then I dont know if I could handle the new.
I try so very hard to move on but I for some reason seem to be stuck in this limbo of things that wont allow me to continue... everywhere is a reminder of what was...
Why cant I just want to live for what is going to be?
(Im sure this makes absolutly no sense to anyone but myself, but thats ok I needed to get some stuff off my chest withough specifics....)
Posted by Pj's Mama at 10:39 AM 1 comments
Friday, July 25, 2008
Sleepy anyone?
Raise of hands? Who has ever been this tired?????
Ok so all I can do is laugh when I look at this photo, why? Well for one its just plain funny, Two, well I very well could be this tired today...
Referancing back to "The Begining" I remember saying something about two jobs, mmm right did I also mention that I was crazy? Its now 9 am and I am on my 4th cup of coffee cause my Tired ass didnt get home from the bar till 2am (mind you I was suppose to be off at midnight)... Not only did I get home at 2am, I had to be up by 6am to take little miss Payton to the babysitter so I could be working by 6:30... OH WAIT! I do it all over again today, lol can someone please tell me what im doing? j/k
On a more exciting note: I got a new car... Its about time :) Though my sisters may call it the "MiniWagon" lol I absolutly LOVE it...
Posted by Pj's Mama at 8:06 AM 1 comments
Thursday, July 24, 2008
Theres always a begining....
OK so I've always been into writing though I've never really shared anything with anyone other then my Family...
I have the most amazing, most beautiful, most wonderful little girl in the world (not like I'm prejudice or anything.. hehe)... Though a few years ago going into the Military (no matter how short lived) I thought my life was on a path that didn't involve little children at all. I myself never wanted kids and if I had decided to do so it wouldn't have been for a long long time... All that being said, I wouldn't change a thing, Payton is my absolute world and she is what I revolve around.. I myself could never imagine nor do I really want to, what my life would be like right now without that little angel...
Posted by Pj's Mama at 8:59 AM 3 comments